i'm pregnant, you're the father and i'm going to kill all three of us…
sometimes when you try.. you fail.
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Well my best try at helping an old friend get over being an alcoholic failed this past week.. She called and told me she was at her boyfriends house and started drinking to get rid of a head ache. This was of course after multiple attempts at getting a hold of her and failing. I told her when she moved in that the only rule I had was no drinking.. I didn’t want to have to worry about someone getting plastered at my house when I was away. Unfortunately I couldn’t let this violation of the rule slide. There are parts of me that wanted to say “oh it’s okay.. come back”, but then what’s to prevent it from happening again and again? It’s not like I live out in the middle of no where, alcohol is 50 feet away at all times. She decided to move in with her new boyfriend of 2 months and is going to try living there with him… who knows? Maybe that’s how it was attended to go by the man upstairs.
All I know is that when she came to get her stuff tonight, she didn’t look well at all. She looked like when she first came here, kind of slickly and overly emotional. She had done so well too, but one slip up lead to a week long drinking binge. She did tell me she’s stopped again and started taking the anti drinking pill, but who knows how long that will last.. hopefully it will, but she threw away a carrier type job with great people, a good place to live, and a decent room mate. I suppose it’s my fault for thinking that it was even possible to help someone when I have no training and no control over what she does or puts into her body. Maybe I gave her too much freedom, but what else was I supposed to do?.. If given the same choice again I’m sure I would make the same mistakes.
Ugh.. it’s not so much that she drank even.. it’s that she didn’t even call before she did.. she didn’t try to reach out and I felt like I had failed her in some way. Anyways.. I’m not too happy with myself right now. I’m sure it will pass eventually, but I think for tonight I might just crawl into my bed and try to pretend this day didn’t happen. I did try… but I suppose that old saying “you make plans, God laughs” is true. Him and her are the only two people that can really help her right now. So I’m hoping and praying that one of them will. So she can finally give up this horrible addiction. /sigh
Current Mood:
Sad
over 5000+ images.. sheesh..
0“If I speak at one constant volume.. At one constant pitch.. At one constant rhythm right into your ear.. You still won’t hear, you still won’t hear..” So I got bored and put up all the images I’ve accumulated over the years from the net. Link is over to your right if you want a cheap laugh.. It made me start wondering.. how many pictures are on the internet?.. Millions, billions.. a google?
I found this site with statistics from 2011 and from what I can gather it grows by leaps and bounds each year.. but check out these numbers:
Images
- 14 million – Number of Instagram accounts created during 2011.
- 60 – The average number of photos uploaded per second to Instagram.
- 100 billion –Estimated number of photos on Facebook by mid-2011.
- 51 million – Total number of registered users on Flickr.
- 4.5 million – Number of photos uploaded to Flickr each day.
- 6 billion – Photos hosted on Flickr (August 2011).
- 1 – Apple iPhone 4 is the most popular camera on Flickr.
It’s amazing to think about that really.. I mean photos used to be something you just snapped, then got developed at your local photo store, but with digital camera built into almost every device out there, it’s crazy to think how many images will be on the net at the end of 2012.
I’ve heard that they’re working on software that will allow a computer to recognize what a picture is.. sort of an artificial intelligence. As most people know a computer really is stupid when it comes to pictures… It can’t tell the difference between a picture of an owl or the constitution. Facial recognition has really helped improve adding photos to social media sites, but just imagine if a computer could tell what a photo was as soon as you uploaded it. With robotics progressing like they are, I think photo recognition would just be another part of a robot’s ability to tell what things are that it’s looking at. Also… perhaps.. who to kill and who to leave alive. Dun dun dun dun.. Terminator! :)
Until that day, I hope you all have a lovely week and enjoy your Terminator free existence.. See ya on Judgement day!
Current Mood:
Mischievous
r.i.p. vinny…
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Just received word from Vinny’s owners that he passed away this morning at 5:30. I was very sad to hear this and even more sad that I will never see him again. He was a great kitty and always playful and considerate. I’ll never forget him, he was the first cat I’ve ever had that while you slept, you could put your arm around him and he wouldn’t freak out.. or you could rest your hand on him and he was just purr. Most cats are very persistent to get food in the morning, but my Vinny would just sit at the side of the bed and look at my eyes. He would wait silently until he saw them open, then express his desire for breakfast. He wouldn’t wake me up, but instead wait for me to come around. You better believe that as soon as my eyes opened though he would sing the song of kitty hunger all the way to the kitchen. Meow meow meow meow meooooww!
There are many speculations about what happens to animal’s souls when they pass away. The Bible doesn’t really mention too much about what happens to our beloved animals when they go. I would think that they go to heaven and await us when we arrive. I hope that’s true.. or at the very least they are reincarnated as another animal. So either Vinny is up there in the clouds looking down on me and waiting for me to arrive or he’s now a new born kitten with his whole life ahead of him again. Either one would suit me just fine and that’s what I’m going to hope for, because my beloved Vinny was an awesome cat and I hope in some way that I see him again. You’ll not be forgotten Vinny.. I’ll miss you.
Current Mood: Sad
bada bing bada boom..
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Decided that I hadn’t seen the Sopranos in quite some time and I love mob shows. I will say this about the show.. the people that seem to get involved with the mafia are doing so of their own free will. So this one guy in the show gets into a bunch of trouble after gambling a bunch of money that he didn’t have.. so the mob of course roughed him up then stole his business and killed it. Now if he had been a good boy and not gambled he would have been a lot happier and still had his business. I will say this about the mob.. usually if you’re a civilian and you keep your nose clean they seem not to mess with you.
I guess that what I’m saying is that it was a good show, but I’m glad I don’t live in a big city where the mob and big gangs aren’t really a problem. At least they’re not ones that we see on a daily basis. That’s one reason I was happy when my friend came to live with me from Indianapolis. She’s been here about 2 months now and things are going really well for her. She’s met a guy that lives pretty close by and they’ve started dating. I got to meet him last night and I was really impressed with how nice he was and how cool he was. I’m really happy that she’s found someone that is going to be good for her and good to her. She also got her insurance license and is making pretty good money at an agency in town. I think she’s doing really well here and that God has blessed her with a second chance.
As for me things have been a bit slow recently.. I haven’t gotten to see Sarah too much, at least not as much as I’d like and that’s been pretty difficult for me. Especially since my room mate has been spending a bunch of time with her boyfriend I guess I’m a bit jealous. I kinda knew that dating someone with a child and a full time job would be difficult, but when I’m sitting here at my computer with nothing to do the time crawls by and I get worried or paranoid. I know I don’t have any reason to be and I’m trying to work on the problems that cause this insecurity. From what I’ve read it’s a result of having a low self esteem and low self confidence. Unfortunately those problems inside me manifest emotions that aren’t healthy or even justified. Sometimes I just need to repeat that to myself and just know that deep down she loves me and hope that if she wanted to see someone else, she would just tell me. She’s not the people I’ve dated in the past and I know that… Sometimes I just need a slap in the face to remind me. I know that when she’s here, I love every second, but it just doesn’t last as long as I’d like it to.
Maybe I need to find me a new game to suck away all my spare time.. I’ll be happy with Diablo III comes out. Tick tock.. tick tock.
Current Mood:
Bored
so ends my star trek next generation marathon..
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Oh sure I had seen most all of them when I used to watch them on TV, but it was nice to go through all the episodes one last time. I also ended my series by watching all of the next generation movies in order of release. It’s always sad to think that there will probably never be another Next Generation crew movie or episode, but I think it’s all for the best.
I think Next Generation resembles old television pretty well. You could go and watch a single episode without having watched anything other episode and pretty much follow the plot okay. Television today draws you in by demanding you have seen the previous ones to get the underlying plot of the show. I think that’s what makes television almost better than movies these days. I couldn’t tell you where or how it started, but television pulls you into what seems like a story told over a long period of time. It’s almost like watching a 12 hour movie, but instead of becoming bored and falling asleep after the first 2 hours, they separate it and also include other plots and stories.
My girlfriend had not seen Big Bang Theory from the beginning so we started a marathon whenever she was here to get her caught up. If she had tried to watch a single recent episode, she would be semi-lost without knowing the history of the characters or the past experiences they have had. I think these days I watch more television shows than movies… it seems that movies need to take a new direction to keep up, but I couldn’t tell you what that direction should be. I think most people would agree that after two hours in a theater things become a little boring. I know I have pretty much completely stopped going to the theater because of the people that usually watch the movie with you. You have Jo Asshole over here that wants to text and light up the place with his bright phone screen. Then on the other side of you there are children who shouldn’t even be allowed in to see the movie crying and talking. Then there’s the teenagers who could give two shits about the film and would rather giggle, make out, or worse in the seats behind you. NO THANK YOU. I would much rather sit on my couch, turn on my 65 inch television with surround sound and enjoy a movie with a loved one, friend, or hell maybe just myself.
So now that I’m completely off topic, I would like to say I enjoyed the marathon and look forward to future films, even if they don’t involve John Luke Pickard. ;)
Current Mood: Sad
Melancholy 