Updated: Wed Aug. 18 2010 12:44:56

ctvcalgary.ca

A Calgary woman has been killed in a motorcycle crash in Washington State.

It happened around 2:30 p.m. on Tuesday in the City of Lyman.

The victim is 48-year-old Dawna Cox.

Police tell CTV News Cox was passing several vehicles on the highway when a car turned in front of her bike,

She ran into a Subaru and was thrown into a building. Cox died at the scene.

This news came as a shock to me.. You don’t really know how attached you are to someone online until something like this happens.  It makes me think back to all the times we chatted and raided dungeons with each other.  The jokes that were made and someone drama that was caused in the game.  I find myself grieving the same as if I lost a close friend that existed outside of WoW.  We used to talk on vent and all joke around with each other.. and though I haven’t played WoW in months, I always felt that I could come back and everything would be the same.  Unfortunately, it never will.  I will ask that you pray for her husband…  I only knew him as Deev, but they were good people.  People that didn’t deserve this.

It’s always a risk when you ride a motorcycle that some idiot in a car won’t see you or won’t even look.  It’s a risk that I accepted each time I mounted my motorcycle and went for a drive.  It’s just sad when news like this hits so close to home.  Atarial.. aka Dawna Cox’s… You will be very missed by me and the rest of the guild you left behind.  I will always remember the good times we had with each other.  The time you stood up for me in the instance we did when someone was bad mouthing me.  The amount we laughed afterward…  Rest in peace.

Current Mood: Sad

I usually don’t post videos that I find on youtube, but I just had to share this with everyone and anyone.  DeStorm is a great guy who makes random music videos and he just makes all sorts of really funny stuff.  This is one of the videos he’s done about some crazy dude on the news.  You just gotta watch this..

Also here’s a link to the original..Original video..

Current Mood: Playful

This is some video I took while we were at the Mayhem Festival this year.. This was a little bit of speaking out about music piracy while they were at Virginia Beach.  Was really funny to see all the people who willingly said that they had pirated the music of Five Finger Death Punch.  They were really cool when they saw the response and made me giggle a bit.  They were just impressed and happy that we were at their show to see them.  I’m curious as to if they make more money off of CDs or off of doing tours like this.  I know the money has probably lots of different directions to go, but I’m sure the bands get a little bit of it :).  I also like to think that the CDs that they sell at the shows gives the band more money than buying it at the stores (which I’m sure take a large chunk).  Anyways.. point of this blog is just to say “rock on” to FFDP for being so cool about music piracy and realizing that just because someone downloads your music, doesn’t mean you’re losing millions of dollars.

Current Mood: Happy

As the day went on and the sun went down, we got to our seats and enjoyed all the main lining bands like Five Finger Death Punch, Lamb of God, Rob Zombie, and Korn.  I would say that the best show was put on by Rob Zombie because of the absolute energy that he put into the show.  They got off to a late start so I think they were putting extra care into making sure people got their money’s worth.  Rob knew they had a schedule to stick to so without much talking, he proceeded to rock the faces off everyone there.  He even took time to run through the crowd and right by me.  I was literally 3 feet away from the singer of my all time favorite band.  I was especially shocked when they sang some old White Zombie songs including Thunder Kiss ’65.  The audience went crazy and I think they absorbed our energy and fed it right back to us.

A+ show by all bands.. I think the heat zapped much of the energy of the crowd, but it was an awesome show and sounded great!!  The people that I went with made the show even better.. big thanks to Sam, Jessi, Mikey and Janine (hope I spelled that right) for hanging out… Also ran into my awesome friend and her hubby while we were there and it was nice to see they made it up safe and sound.  I don’t know that I’ll do it again next year if the heat is the same, but hopefully!

Current Mood: Cool

Current Mood: Esctatic

I will say that making the choices I have that I have touched many people’s lives that I might not have if I had made different choices.. Maybe that’s what it’s all about.  The choices you make in life though may be bad at the time can some times lead to doing good in other people’s lives.  That can sometimes make up for what ever heart ache you suffer personally.  Maybe people benefit or learn from your choices or mistakes.  Maybe it makes them stronger people in life or helps them to touch other peoples’ lives in a way that wouldn’t be possible otherwise.  I think there’s a master plan for everyone and though you may not agree with that plan at the time or afterwards, it isn’t always your choice to make.  I think I have done good and bad in my life.. I think that would sum up the story for a lot of people, but things usually tend to work out.  I suppose that’s what life is…  Making choices.. living with them.. and learning from them.

I know that she might be reading this, but this is the only place I can voice my truest feelings and emotions.  It’s hard to hold those in sometimes.  She will always have a place in my heart and I know that it will never change.  I just didn’t know what I could do to help her feel better, so I hugged her when I could and promised that no matter what, I would be there for her in any way that I could be.  I suppose that’s all I can really do.. I guess that’s what makes me so sad.  I’m probably only feeling a fraction of what she’s going through, but I know that it hurts and makes me tear up just thinking.  I guess as we get older we’ll all have to go through that sooner or later.  I know that when that day comes that I won’t be able to hold my feelings back as well as she did.  She’s a super strong person, but I also know that she’s in pain, because for some reason I can feel it.

Seems that life is sometimes a blessing and a curse.  There are good times and bad times, so I think sometimes life evens itself out.  I suppose you have to work through the bad times and hope that the good times are just around the corner.  Something to take your mind off the pain of loss or any of other life’s little pitfalls.  I will say that I’m so glad that a couple more of our friends showed up to support her and her family.  I know we couldn’t do much, but I can only hope that just my presence was a bit of encouragement that she’s not alone and never will be.

You mean more to me than you’ll ever know and I’m here for you any time and always will be.

Current Mood: Sad

And my mama swore
That she would never let herself forget
And that was the day that I promised
I’d never sing of love
If it does not exist

But, darling, you are the only exception
But you are the only exception

Well, maybe I know somewhere
Deep in my soul
That love never lasts
And we’ve got to find other ways
To make it alone
Or keep a straight face

And I’ve always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance
And up until now, I had sworn to myself
That I’m content with loneliness
Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, you are the only exception

I’ve got a tight grip on reality
But I can’t let go of what’s in front of me here
I know you’re leaving in the morning when you wake up
Leave me of some kind of proof it’s not a dream, oh

You are the only exception
And I’m on my way to believing
Oh, and I’m on my way to believing

The Only Exception – Paramore

Current Mood: Confused

Not much else going on at the moment, so I’ll wrap this up by saying that I hope anyone that reads this is having a great summer!

Current Mood: Happy

To recap.. Hung out with friend’s ex.. went to a public place with friends and family to help her forget about how he broke her heart.  No sex… no groping, no kissing, no holding hands, no sexual contact at all.  Just one human trying to help another human through a rough patch.

Well today I decided to tell the now ex-bro that I was hanging out with her and that started the drama for the week.   I tried to explain to him that I help anyone I can with these circumstances because I have been through them myself.  I know the heart ache very well and can usually cheer that person up.  Ending of relationships can be a bad thing and I did not want to be the kind of person that ditch another one just because of their relationship status or ex-relationship status.  I guess I’m in the total wrong in this modern day where someone can’t be friends with someone’s ex.  How lame is that?  For that matter the phrase “Bros before hoes” is just a horrible thing to say.  It’s very demeaning to another person.  Should you really have to meet a certain criteria to be able to receive help and a kind word from another?  Honestly… What would God say to someone who would do that?  We’re all His children.. no matter what.  If one of us is suffering then another should step up and help no matter what.  If you’re the kind of person that would reject someone’s plea for help based on the fact they dated a friend or family member, then you’re probably what’s wrong with this world today.

Everyone needs help sometimes!  I can’t help it that I’m usually pretty good at cheering people up.. You can ask my friends or what friends I have left after this.  Honestly though.. it doesn’t really matter to me either way. I have my family.. I have God.. and I know they will always be there for me even if we don’t see eye to eye.  Blood is thicker than water.. that’s a statement I can live with.  If someone wants to de-friend you because you’re helping someone else with their problems, then so be it.  Just means that they do live by that phrase of “bros before hoes” and while they may be there for you, there should always be that little thing in the back of your mind that if that person who’s heart you broke asks for help, they’re going to get the shaft from that person.  That’s not the kind of people I want to be around or the kind of person that I am.  If you need help from me.. I’m here.. that’s it.. no strings.  I don’t tell my friends who they can be friends with.. never have.. never will.  I may advise against someone, but I wouldn’t chastise them for going against my advice.

That’s my venting for the night.. Sorry for the lack of bloggage, but this summer I hope to be spending lot of time at the lake and enjoying myself. Speaking of which, here’s some pictures I took and some of them are pretty nice :)

Lake pictures!

By the way.. I welcome any comments on this topic.

Current Mood: Confused