Archive for July, 2007

a big step…

Welp.. Monday is the big day. I close on my first house. Seems that I should be jumping up and down.. and yeah, I’m happy that I’m taking this step. However it also makes me sad. I guess it just means I’m getting older and older. I dunno.. On more than one occasion my mind drifts to the fact that my grandpa Jones can’t be here to see how well I’ve done and how well I’ve done for myself and how I’ve grown to be a pretty decent person. …. It really does get to me. I know God has blessed me with this chance to be on my own for real and I am very grateful and I thank Him as much as I can. Just kinda wish my grand-daddy long legs could see it too. …. It’s really hard for me to write this. I guess that sort of explains the previous entry. I know it’s a love song, but it’s a reminder to me that I never really got a chance to say good bye. I’m very fortunate to have my other grandparents and I love them dearly and I don’t know what I’ll do if I lose them, although I do know that it will devastate me totally. To my grandparents: I love you all.. I love every single thing about you, you guys are always with me.

Never thought I’d really start feeling myself get older, but it’s starting to happen. I don’t want any of you to get me wrong. I have a great life.. a great family that loves me and people around me that genuinely care about me. I thank God whenever I get a chance for all that He has given me. I may not be the richest person I know.. but I’m happy. Sometimes certain things eat away at me, but other than that.. I’m very thankful. Wish me luck on Monday.. hopefully if everything goes well.. I’ll be doing lots of cleaning at my new place *smile*

To my grand-dad: I love you very much and I look forward to the day when we see each other again. Until then I hope you’re watching me, cause I miss you dearly and I hope you’re proud of me.

a lyrical entry

Things are changing
It seems strange and
I need to figure this out
You’ve got your life
I got mine
But you’re all I cared about
Yesterday we were laughing
Today I’m left here asking
Where has all the time gone now
I’m left alone somehow
Growing up and getting older
I don’t want to believe it’s over

Don’t say goodbye
Cause I don’t wanna hear those words tonight
Cause maybe it’s not the end for you and I
And although we knew
This time would come for me and you
Don’t say anything tonight
If you’re gonna say goodbye

Do you remember
In December
How we swore we’d never change
Even though you’re leaving
That our feelings
Would always stay the same
I wish we could be laughing
Instead I’m standing here asking
Do we have to end this now
Can we make it last somehow

We both know what we’ve gotta say, not today
Cause I don’t wanna leave this way

Don’t say goodbye
Cause I don’t wanna hear those words tonight
Cause maybe it’s not the end for you and I
And although we knew
This time would come for me and you
Don’t say anything tonight
If you’re gonna say goodbye

And if it’s over
It hurts but I’m giving you my word
I hope that you’re always
Happy like we were
Happy like we were

Don’t say goodbye
Cause I don’t wanna hear those words tonight
Cause maybe it’s not the end for you and I
And although we knew
This time would come for me and you
Don’t say anything tonight
If you’re gonna say goodbye

Yesterday we were laughing (if you’re gonna say goodbye)
Today I’m left here asking (if you’re gonna say goodbye)
And although we knew this time would come for me and you
Don’t say anything tonight
If you’re gonna say goodbye

rock the boat.. don’t rock the boat baby.

So my fight against SPAMMERS trying to add urls to my comment section seems to be going well. After blocking all sorts of weird stuff like viagra and really all URLs I think they have finally got the hint that I do not want to advertise for them… for free! It’s sad when in this world you can’t just have a simple blog on a site without advertising following you like a rejected lover who just won’t get the hint you don’t wanna do the nasty with them! I don’t know where that came from… *smile*

Good news! I think you have to have good news after that strange rant! Well let’s first start with the most recent news. Weekend before last my sister, her boyfriend and I went to King’s Dominion (local theme park, well not really local.. 3 hours away) for King’s Fest. Basically it’s a bunch of Christian bands that get together and rock out. I absolutely loved it! The energy in the crowd was awesome! So many excited people to be in one place for the same reason. Wow! We also went around and rode as many rollercoasters as humanly possible in one day. Jason and I’s two favorite words of the day were “front seat!” which we carried out on every single one. I mean.. how can you ride a roller coast and not be in the front seat? You can see so much more! I also rode a coaster that you stand up on, but totally forgot that there’s a very uncomfortable little bicycle seat you have to straddle while on it. Needless to say my ass bone hurt like crazy for days afterwards. I think yesterday was the first day I really didn’t notice the pain. Mental note.. never again! *grin* All the rest of the coasters were awesome, even though you should never ride two wooden coaster back to back.. or else you’re asking for a head ache or a bruised bladder.

Good news number two!! I am moving in my new house in about a week. Wow… moving… again. Yeah it’s as exciting as it sounds. Well.. the getting a house part is. The moving, not so much. I’m really excited though and I hope everything turns out for the best. I should have pictures to post when I’m all moved in and of course I’ll have to change the logo at the top of this website cause I’ll no longer be in this room while entering my new blogs. I think the part that excites me the most is having my own kitchen. I am a person who likes to cook and not having exclusive rights to a kitchen can be a hard thing to cope with. I wish I could say I’ll have time to myself too, but not really. I actually have two people wanting to move in with me that will shortly be coming with me after I move my stuff in. Only one will be there for any real period of time, the other guy will be moving out in December. My house isn’t really small, but it’s not 3 or 4 people big either. I can’t wait!!!!!

Other than that, life goes on.. things get interesting and I continue to try to do as much work as I can. Gonna need the money! I have a ton of stuff going on in the next couple of weeks.. so the next time I get a chance to vent will probably be from my new home and I’m sure I’ll have a ton of stuff to talk about … until then!

Flood insurance?

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