Archive for September, 2008
meet my alter ego…
Sep 24th
As some of you may know, I started playing Warhammer online recently and so far have built me a very nice character selection. I would like to introduce you to Rehatiel (Is the head of the seven Angels ruling the planets.). He is a member of the Army of Chaos and is a Chosen class of player. Technical descriptions aside… He describes me to a T. Although he’s more of my hidden side. The side of me that wants to ravage and destroy everything in my path. He isn’t nice to people. He likes to sit and watch his enemies, then when they’re at their weakest, take advantage of their pain and thrust his sword deep into their chest. It often takes 4 or 5 people to just get him down to a manageable point.
So far I have killed 1,000 people with him and his blood lust grows with every death. I wish I could tell you that he has devotion to his side, but honestly he’s only in this war to satisfy his desire to kill, maim, and slash his way through the people who cannot defend themselves. He won’t show you mercy on the field of battle, or for that matter anywhere he finds you.
It’s scary to see the things we can be in games that we cannot be in real life. At least this way, that part of me gets to come out and play without any show of remorse.
truth amongst the lies… part 1.
Sep 24th
So I was messing around today and figured I’d play a new game. :) I think that this game will be called what the subject says. I will list a bunch of falsehoods about me, however a certain number of those will be true. This might give you an idea of who I am or might totally confuse and/or scare you. Here goes… there will be two truths in this first part.
1. I have cheated at least once on every girlfriend that I have and I don’t feel bad about it
2. I have never thought or attempted suicide
3. I had a gay experience when I was very young
4. I have always had a sexual attraction to one of my male friends
5. I always see something bad in the person that I’m dating
6. I once hit someone with my car and didn’t stop or go back
7. I have slept with more people than I can remember
8. I often secretly cut myself to see if I can block out pain
9. None of my friends ever have me around which makes me question if they are true friends
10. I have never used drugs or had unprotected sex
Of course I’ll probably never tell you which two are true, but I think it’s a fun game to me! I guess I’ll find out if I’m a poor liar ;)
ps. I would love this game to catch on, so if you blog please start your own game.. Give me credit if you want, but I doubt I’m the first person to think of this :D
abc… easy as 1-2-3
Sep 24th
It all started out pretty innocently. Hanging out here and there and maybe getting into the random adventure of odd proportions. Maybe the occasional musical/adventure. Here recently though it’s taken a sort of turn for the … how do I put it, not really sexual, but more attraction. It started out as a nibble on the ear here and a cuddle there. Last night was the I think the strangest of all. It started out as a strange mutation where I had two penises and I couldn’t figure out which one I wanted to give more attention to. Then it mutated into a musical where I was dancing with someone to the Jackson 5 song of ABC-123. Then after the dance was over I met up with this person and she said. “Wouldn’t it have been cooler if White Zombie had been playing?”. I agreed and then we proceeded to hang out and talk about random stuff. Then she left for a while and came back with a shirt that barely covered herself. I pulled her shirt down to cover one of her exposed breasts, but that only seemed to bring her closer to me. She then started to kiss me and I asked why she would cheat on her boyfriend. She then responded that why would she sit around being arroused if all she had to do was come through a portal and be satisfied (apparently there was a portal that lead straight to my house).
It then progressed from there, but not really far because of my alarm waking me up. Kind of wondering what tonight will hold, but very odd that I’m having these dreams about a person who is just friends and only friends. She’s cool, but I don’t have the feelings for her that I have in real life. I’ve always heard that dreams are a way for the mind to run certain scenarios that it is curious about. I guess that’s all this was, still very odd and very disturbing on my part that I didn’t resist more. I wasn’t aware it was a dream at the time and it all felt very real.
The mind plays very strange tricks on you when your eyes close :)
ps. If you’re reading this and think the dream was about you, it probably wasn’t.. and if it was, that would be weird huh? Pay it no mind. I write here because I want to and it’s my personal thoughts. Don’t want to freak anyone out and honestly what happens in your dreams and what happens in real life are two total different things. Keep that in mind.
Mood : Full 
